In regret

Death is always hard.

My brother mother-in-law passed away this morning.

I found out before I went to Chinese exam...so I blocked it

When it's over and I'm walking by the University Club I almost cry in the middle of the road.Just because the arwah was a wonderful person.

I feel very regretful I didn't visit her.

I should have.

Please sedekahkan Al-Fatihah.

Final class

Today is my final day of class in college.Oh wow. It doesn't feel that way because I have millions things due later.

I am going to miss my classmates and college.

I've been updating way too much

One of my friends posted a bulletin at Friendster about a complaint about University Malaysia Sabah( International Campus) . She condemned the person who file a complaint about the university saying how ungrateful is that person for not being grateful about the chance of at least getting into a public university when countless of other is denied(Point 1 taken). And finally my friend degraded that person by saying the person who complaint must be loser that fail to get into foreign university*gasp!* You can read bout the complaint here.

Oh my god! In the first place everybody has to have access to a good quality education. If that person feels what's provided is not enough then he or she certainly have the rights to complaint. Honestly when was the last time you heard that Malaysia education is the best?Except from propaganda from government? Yeah I don't think so either.

I think most Malaysia just refused to open their mind at all.Every criticism has to be taken personally. I think this sort of attitude drives us backward. Haish.....racism in Malaysia is also not getting better.Now recently with pig farm and all that...

I was discussing with Sonic over delicious Korean meal, that Malay in Malaysia need to accept that there are ppl who eat pig. If Hindus can accept we eat beef who is actually a sacred animal in Hindu religion and their god as well then why can't we accept chinese eat pig? It's just a freaking animal anyway.

Revenge best served cold?

Well it's funny how seeing this article about a spouse posting a youtube video saying things about her husband. Generally I find it funny. The method maybe a little bit uncivilized and perhaps she's also a gold digger but I think that hey,if you can evict your spouse from home just like that then perhaps you do deserved a little bit of embarrassments.

My sister lousy stupid fat-ass ex-husband cheat on her. Of course I am in no way saintly like my mother that just said "It's alright. God have it's way of returning the favor". I am planning to go to the wedding (he's getting married to the girl he cheat my sister) silently and return the favor. I am also planning to stealthily go to the office of the girl(she works as a PR for Bank Muamalat) and I dunno leave some flyer she's the reason of a divorce. Yes that's my great plans.* Talking about bank muamalat while googling for the girl, I found out that she entertains her client at Zouk!whoops. is this the way an Islam bank would operate.Imagine spending the money you save at there buying drinks*

Of course revenge is a terrible thing and sometimes it is best served cold. *I am serving it cold after 2 years*. But if revenge gets you moved on, by all means do it. Just don't be too consumed with the rage.

Anyway,call me conservative or whatever. I despise people who cheats.

hahaha

hahahaha. I just had a good time laughing about it.

I'm just fucking pissed off

Incoherent mumblings

I get massive headache from staring at my computer doing aspen.


Okay just wanna let people know that. Back running doing work while listening to Bee Gees.

Aaaaah I'm craving for some orange sorbet ice cream that munchie mart have. Somebody pleaseee get it for me?

p/s: On second thought maybe I shouldn't post my flowsheet. Somebody might copy it. My fellow chem eng mates don't do that!*Inclusive my american friends if you google me *Anyway the flow sheet still x complete pun. Ade a bunch of things I need to add

Tudung saji

I really enjoy this documentary...Double meaning sits well



p/s: Melayu FC won the final intramural!

Current obsession

Well I wish I can tell my current obsession is a bag but noooo...I don't follow what the it bag anymore because seriously it's not like I can afford all that* yes that a big fat lie! I still want it,only my sensibility prevail than going overboard*

Anyhow, my current obsession is Rockband. It seriously the most addictive game ever.I mean I could just play 6 hours straight if
not thinking I still have my quiz to study.I end up with a sore finger and ache everywhere in my body. It's basically fun because you are playing with a group of people. There's drum,2 guitar and a mic. I sing horribly and often make up my own lyrics as I go but who cares? * senyap fiqa and sonic!* Well the games is basically trying to play flawlessy to all these rock song and gathering as much fans and money you can to unlock places.

Every night lah boleh kate we play this game. Now we can even listen to all these rock kapak songs. How rock kapak? I can hear sonic playing this song repeatedly since last night. I can even say I memorized the Rolling Stone song, " Gimme Shelter".Yes that's how addicted we got.

Well usually Haziq and Reza don't join us but last night was an exception. Our main singer, Fiqa * I use her iphone to capture these picture.uuuuu* is on rest. I too usually play the bass together with fiqa jadi groupie that night.

Oh well, I am going to play rockband again in just a few minutes.hehehe.Adieu!

Yes I am out!

Yes it seems the mood in the blog is uplifting.People are ready to turn a new leaves and I am soo glad for that! It is depressing okay to read all these emo post.

Most of us have blogged for years realized that we can't be undermined with all these anonymous comments that somehow intentionally makes us argue. Hello? If you really want to express your opinion speak up write your name and claim the responsibilities. Don't be a freaking coward. We're all fairly rational people around here. We can accept others' opinions even if it not to our flavor.

Enough about that, intramural is here again and it seems that the guys are performing so well. I try to go as often as I could if I am not distracted by rockband and of course real life.

Weather is surprising*literally*. Forecast say it will rain however it doesn't and it just makes me so confuse planning my days and clothes around it. Nashville! please make up your mind.

I like go on standing there in the field watching guys around*winking* and wearing my shades and enjoying the breeze. It feels sooo good!

The other day, when I was walking back from group meeting I had this sudden rush of alah I feel so sad suddenly and I just thought okay time to go buy some ice cream and satisfy my craving. I thought that if I didn't get to eat my ice cream I might cry any minute.Must be some random pms thingy. I feel good now.


p/s: Dollah wear my jersey that I never wear! I think I might as well give it to him.

cotton candy and blue skies

I am going on a hiatus for awhile. Blogging has starting to be so phenomenal recently and I hate watching what I want to say. There's so many silent readers that I don't know what possibly I said could lead to something else which has happened to a lot of people around me recently...

Plus, spring is here. I am taking out my shades again and off enjoying the splendid weather. Farewell my lovely friends!

Long awaited movie

I read the Yahoo! news today that an Indonesia film is becoming really famous. Now, it's not the usual chick flick that Indonesia keep on producing after ' Ada apa dengan cinta" * Well I do like the movie halfway*. The movies is called " Ayat-ayat cinta" and it has been receiving raving reviews and people is fighting to see it* yes! I mean it literally*

I am really attracted to see it and I hope I could obtain the movie soon...It's basically about a man who went to Egypt to study in University Al Azhar. All his life he has been an observing muslim and this include the fact he doesn't develop relationship with women before marriage.

Arriving in Egypt he found himself surrounded by 4 beautiful women each with to their own attractiveness. He got married to one of them but suddenly one of the women accused him of raping and so the movie begins. I am really interested how they will portray women wearing headscarf. Finally somebody will shed a new light on women that wear headscarf.

Wearing head scarves has subjected me to really unfair treatment in the airport and getting glances whenever I go. Yes I could handle it but sometimes I wish people would stop looking for once and think I am not a terrorist or this forward mind people and instead think of me as a human,a girl.

Quoted from the yahoo! " says she feels almost guilty when she sees women wearing headscarves or veils being pulled aside at airports by security guards for extra questioning while she — dressed in Western clothes, her head uncovered — is left alone." when she is one of them too.

So here's the trailer. Maybe one day we can catch it up together ?

ah what possibly could happen?

Oookay yes I know that Halle Berry is pregnant since summer but I never ever bother to check who is the father since NOBODY mentions it to me that the hubby is sooo freaking gorgeous.

I read the yahoo news that the father is male model so, my instinct of hey! there's gorgeous men kick in and I start googling for the name of "Gabriel Aubry" and walla! there exist this gorgeous hotty and he have a baby with Halle Berry. Oh gosh I wonder how the baby would look like.The mom is the prettiest african american women and the dad is the model for Versace. It's like Jolie-Pitt and Holmes-Cruise baby all over again. Talking about good genes.

This makes me think I have to find some gorgeous man to ensure my kids will have good genetic.

Let's enjoy the awesome pictures

It's an exciting time

I feel giddy all over. I can't believe I am able to go through this change. I thought forever BN will win but the citizens of Malaysia has done the impossible. Some may think it is sudden, but the wheel has been set in motion 8 years ago.

Yes there maybe changes that might seem so incredibly scary but to be able to move forward we need to be able to stand this. I believe Malays are resilience and able to make a breakthrough. We've been in stagnant period for sooo long that I wonder if people around me restless.

I am writing honestly, that sometimes I feel ashamed to be a Malay* precarious statement isn't it?* but that is only because when I see my amazingly brilliant Chinese friends that don't get a scholarship just because they are Chinese. To me that is just plain wrong. Yes direct competition is scary but if competing in shallow pool forever then what's the meaning?

I've been thrown to a place that only 10% is Malay and I see that the 10% Malays do go somewhere.Might be a different route than we're in but they're going. So you see, there's nothing to be afraid of.

I don't know but I just feel that the skepticism in me for once disappear and say there's hope.

By the end of tonight, the results may changed and the opposition may not win but it shows something that Malaysian people want this and are brave enough to vote for it.

Just like an editor during French Revolution once said" You can burn the book but you can never burn the idea".

P/s: I am writing on my last day in Europe soil.

Across the atlantic

I am going to the land of Goethe, Beethoven and of course beer* according to Schnelle* and my celtic island for a week.Till then,farewell my friend!

Behold! My awesomest daily routine

Nabilah has such been an annoying bugger, bugging me everyday to update my blog.

But I have no idea what to write since hello? life has been so freaking booosan...I have absolutely nothing to write.

Everyday I woke up from bed, I drink my coffee at my desk and check all usual website.Then shower and all that primping myself before going to class.

p/s: I hired an actor to act this for me.



and after that go to class and all that wearing my favorite big YELLOW *nak letak color yellow but my background is yellow.cis!" bag. Since it's currently winter I love wearing my pashminas and winter coat.* I shall miss wearing them in Malaysia*. I also love wearing flats to class.Come snow ,sunshine or rain.Flats it shall be.


After class over, I changed into my favorite tshirt*currently the tshirt I won from the rec fest.It is just sooooo comfortable*. Then with my favorite item,ehem the pillow that I got since I was form 4 start golek-ing*is that even a word?* at the couch reading my manga or just watch anything I like.Currently I like watching the Tudor Series. It has Jonathan Rhys Myers. He is freaking hot okay? and he's getting naked also contribute towards me watching him. Then you know have a little bit snack or two,courtesty of Chef Sonic.



Sometimes if I am not lucky, Nabilah will come mengacau me. We always end up talking crap all the time but that's fine. This could go on for hours and hours. Sometimes Sonic will come join us at the living room but she usually tune off most of the time and sometimes catching a word or two.However, I think that during this time is our special "housemate" time that makes us closer. Surprise! Surprise! we actually have lived together on and off for 3-4 years.





Lastly,after an uneventful day I go to lala-land.


Goodnight everybody!

Oh no!

1. Link to your tagger.

2. I've been forced to share 8 random facts about myself

• When I am lacking sleep ,I can sleep anywhere and anytime,example I can sleep while walking to class from garage to Olin hall. *Yes I am that tired!*
• I am addicted to manga,drama and anime. I think I spent hours downloading it on the internet
• I can be so particularly annoying on some random stuff that just doesn't matter at all
• Whenever I go home for a break, my sister clip my nails for me * Yeah I am that spoiled*
• I was a director for my school play and it won for best overall picture*Yippee*
• I lost all my socks every time I do laundry which results me into doing never buy socks anymore and therefore I don't wear sneakers anymore.
  
• I throw out all my sports outwear because I feel sooo guilty no exercising and because I know it's bad for heart and stuff like that
• I can whip up a decent spaghetti in less than 30 minutes and that is why whenever I am lazy *most of the time* I will cook it.

3. Tag 8 (max) people at the end and list their names.

Dayah Sonic Syamir Cipi Daia Hanum Buchuk Ila Gediks

4. Let them know they've been tagged by leaving comments on their blogs.

Love

lala it's valentine today..no special meaning whatsoever. 2 years in a row exam and every time I spent my Valentine my sleeping.

For all it worths Happy Valentine Day

although yes Nasir ckp Haraaam sambut....

what we watch in chem eng class

Well I hate,umm correction dislike Cummings's class; Process Control. I think it is the most uninteresting class I have ever attended in my 4 years in Vandy. Oh wait forced to attend Physical Chemistry lab lecture is also excruciatingly painful.

Last Thursday since we finished class early so we sat there and watched as usual Prof Cummings had around 30-50 windows opened and it just fascinated us. Suddenly he open the youtube window and Nabilah and I was thinking " Heh he is just like us. Buka youtube gak". Then he did the most unconventional thing ever. This guy who rarely cracked a joke in class play a youtube video about beer ads. Honestly, that made my day. It was the best video and we laughed so hard that I felt like rolling on the floor.

Gong xi fa cai

I almost forgot that Chinese New Year is approaching. It will be on February 2007 and this year it will be an earth rat year. Have you checked your fortune this year? I promise that next year I will get my fortune checked! Almost 4 years haven't done that.All I can do is just reading on the internet. Who knows whether it is accurate?

Yeah I love fortune telling and horoscope.I enjoy reading them.It's fun. I am awfully superstitious in that way.

Well here my fortune for this year.

Many rabbits will find the year of the earth rat unusually fortunate if they can control the tendency to hop about. The rat is not normally a harmonious sign for the rabbit, but this brown earth rat year remembers that both are rodents and does not confuse the rabbit with the cat. Flirtation, romance and marriage lie in wait for the amorous rabbit. The conflict will be to find harmony between the three. Take care not to endanger a possible life long love by continued flirtation. Looking for perfection instead of happiness in love can cause grief. At work the urge to pick on the shortcomings of coworkers and find dissatisfaction with a good position will cause unhappiness. This may be an auspicious time to make changes in your career path with the earth influences fueling new growth for you, but be sure that the change comes from a positive source. Moving toward prosperity will bring a positive cycle, running from adversity will not. Whether you decide to stay or go, a focus on the positive aspects of your current position will lead to long term success and good fortune through the upcoming cycle.

It says here that I am supposed to be unusually fortunate but somehow I don't think so....oh well we'll see if I am going to have a great year.