If there's one thing I dislike the most must be confrontation. I don't like telling people what's wrong or right. They have brain and they certainly put a good use to it. Whenever I tell people something it's because I already weighed pro and cons and think the best way to deliver it.

Recently, I was being honest to B and however this A person does not agree with the way I deliver it. I apologized to A but I told A this is the way I do it and I am sorry if you don't agree with it. If you don't agree with me then you could do it in your own way. And this A person said back to me." since you're already said it to B then it makes no sense for me to say it again" I was angry at A. You reprimanded me on the way I spoke to B but you don't have the guts to say it yourself. Then who are you to say the way I do things is wrong when you yourself has no courage to say it yourself.

All I wanted to do is get my message across. I think I did even if B person deny what he does. I don't expect B person to admit it. When we did something wrong it isn't unusual for us to deny but then silently we admit our own fault and promised to be a better person. I am no authority officer and I don't like to enforce rule on other person. I don't like to have my friends be treated like a kid or be embarrassed. It is not my style.

All I am saying is whatever I said I meant it. If I did say something on whatever it's because it was really imminent for me to say. I am direct and you may consider it is distasteful but when I am being honest to a person it's because I think it's important not to hide behind subtlety and because I treasure that person. If I don't give a damn I wouldn't bother to tell a person anything.

I don't leash my anger that often. But when I did it's because you have over step that boundary. I find it hard to forgive people. That is my weakness. Forgiveness to me is very expensive.The anger subside over time but the grudge doesn't.It doesn't go away with time.

Love in the Time of Dementia

I just read an article in times about former Justice Sandra DaY O'Connor. Her husband who is suffering from Alzheimer's disease is madly in love with someone else and she's happy for him. She said she feels so relief to see her husband of 55 years is so content. She even comes to visit the couple while they hold hand on the swing.

Yes obviously not a lot of us are generous with our love or affection.But I guess when the one you love no longer remembers who you are and it is futile to force them to remember you, then it's better to let them go.Rather than make yourself suffering from lack of affection and frustrating your spouse because he fail to remember you.

Young love is about wanting to be happy and Old love is wanting someone else to be happy.

Love to me is a very selfish kind of thing.You have to sacrifice and let go and let the people you like be happy before you can be happy kinda thing.

I rather like one of the researcher thoughts on it.

“You understand that the bad times pass, and you understand that the good times pass,”

Hope we all go through turbulent and peaceful time with that thoughts in our mind.

Up up and away

The first time I watched the movies was when I was around 9 years old in my Busu's house in Singapore. We were still in laser disk era at that time. I remembered crying after I watched it.

I think mostly everyone has seen it at least once.I've seen 3 times at least I think and every time at the scene where Gump is talking at Jenny's grave my eyes becomes a little misty.

According to Gump our life is a series of incidents and fate that bind us together.He said he didn't know any better but he sure feels like that.

I definitely recommend it to anyone who have 3 hours on their hand. It is definitely one of the best movie I have seen.

yellownes

I am so proud of Malaysian people! way to go guys! speak for your rights.

We are not living better than we were 10 years ago. Our rights are squelched. Government officials are corrupted. It's time.





oops I forget to tell you guys, I am a "liberal"

what kind of car i want

Yeah I know before dreaming buying a car, I should get a license. I know..I will sooon...*I've been saying that so many times already*

But I have been thinking..I think I like to get Toyota Prius. It's so nice and plus it is easy on your pocket although not when you buy it.It's a long term investment. The miles are great! 45 mpg.I am definitely waiting for the 2009 version when it upgraded its battery.

I should definitely do some present worth or annual analysis to see is it worthwhile but rather than spending my money on proton car when you know they are ripping you off and yes people said it's cheap but hello? If you're paying 45-60K for a car and if you add a little bit you have this great car that's great for long term. So why not spend a little bit on something that's better?

I am most definitely will drive a cheap junk for the first year when I work just to save my down payment for the Prius coming out in 2009.

p/s: Prius is available in Pusat Sains Negara.I saw it when I was visiting my friend who was interning there. and there's one Prius belonging to a British expat couple living in Malaysia. Guess I'll be the third one. ehehe.

Oh Prius is also good for environment. and it doesn't hurt to know that Leornado diCaprio also drives it.

Lust, Caution

My most favorite actor, Tony Leung Chiu Wai has a new movie titled Lust,Caution. I can't wait to see it and I probably will buy the dvd just as I did with the rest of his movie. He has this amazing gift to convey emotion through his eyes. All Wong Kar Wai movie would not work if it's not for him.

p/s: this movie has nudity inside it. But then again all his movie has some kind of soft nudity in it.

tagging along with seniors

Favorite breakfast:
pancakes with maple syrup and hashed brown with black coffee

The movie I’ve watched most number of:
shrek, more than 20 times i think.

Least favorite subject in school:
BM.the same like dayah. can't even make proper sentence

Spend my leisure time:
surfing the internet,read manga,read book,watch anime/drama

Worst smell:
everything that smells bad lah

If I could have any car in the world, what would it be?
i like beetle volkswagen convertible

Favorite household chore:
none. how could there be?

When I was a kid I dreamt of becoming a:
mad scientist/archeologist yg jumpa new stuff

Favorite color/s:
none

Favorite performer(s):
none

If I could repeat college I’d take:
archeologist and chinese

3 things I can’t forget before going to office:
purse,vaseline,cellphone

First thing I bought with my first salary:
I want to buy washing machine.haha

I’d like to be remembered as:
someone that makes difference

If a book was made into a movie, would you still bother to read the book?
No. I read a lot but unless the movie was really good i won't be compelled to read it.

Specialty in cooking:
curry and bagedil.haha. right ?

Present crush(es):
hmmm...no one really atm

Favorite hangout:
my home

Best place to shop:
Green hills sebab ader sephora

Do you like to watch plays?
Yes but no hamlet please

Favorite place in the house:
couch

Best gift ever received:
i'm not sure...bracelet from both people, red lipstick...

Weirdest gift ever received:
none really.

Gift that you want to receive as of this moment:
cash. haha

Who do you want to tag?
have no idea

Yahoo or Hotmail?
gmail

Left or right?
left

Black or white?
white maybe, black is good too

Black or blue pen:
Black

Sandals or shoes:
flats, heels whatever.i like everything that my foot can wear

Colgate or Happee:
crest

Chopsticks or fork and spoon:
chopsticks

Robocop or Rambo:
tak leh ker wolverine?

Jollibee or McD:
McD

Coke or Pepsi:
Pepsi

Last person you talked to:
nabilah si annoying.forcing me to listen dier menyanyi

Last person who texted you:
ali imran

Last person who made you laughed:
sonic and reza

Last time I cried:
hmmm this year in february.

You see me always drinking:
coffee